Create, Preserve, Destroy

“Conformity is the jailer of freedom and the enemy of growth” John F. Kennedy

Greetings, This week we experienced enormous devastation. What transpired in Orlando is nothing short of both tragic and horrifying.

It took me back to September 11, 2001 when I lived in New York City and the World Trade Center was taken down. The core of what was felt during that time were feelings of intense fear and of complete desperation realizing that we are not in control, we never were and we never will be.

Anger, rage, frustration, deep sadness, pain and a sense of giving up are what prevailed.

But we won’t allow these feelings to rule us NO!

We will not let this take us down - “Conformity is the jailer of freedom and the enemy of growth” JFK

Since the Sun Valley Wellness Festival (which, BTW, was a HUGE hit!!!), I have been spending time visiting my precious family whom I have grown to love and appreciate more and more as I heal and as I get older. First my mom and step dad, then my brother and his family, and last but not least, my papa and his beautiful wife and her adult children (the children whom I hadn’t seen in 20+ years). As we have probably all experience in some capacity or another, when we get together with family, there is no more disguise; there is no more cover up, the truth of whom we are gets unveiled.

“Whatever buttons/charges your family pushes are there because they are the ones that created them” (haha, I love using this quote of blame and shame, ahhh the good ol’ days!)

But in all truthfulness? It is from this dynamic within our family unit where we have spent most of our formative years, where the charges, hurts and pains get created, that we then continue to carry forth with us throughout life creating a lens that we then perceive through. And as most of us know, if we don’t fully experience these hurts, pains and traumas, horrific things can happen like what just took place in Orlando. We have somehow gotten stuck seeing through a particular lens, through a very slanted perception and extreme violence can emerge.

We can’t blame, we can’t point fingers, we can’t say that this happened because of that. But as I felt with 9.11, as I sank deep in to the belief that there was nothing I could do, only then was I able to open up to the reality that “Your external world is a reflection of your inner world”, and did I come to realize that I actually can make a difference through my commitment of internal growth, of creating wholeness inside, of clearing away the past hurt, pain, and trauma and that someday, there could perhaps be inner peace which would then get reflected in to the outer world which would contribute to having peace here on earth.

It turned in to a space of empowerment instead of a space of victimhood

What happened in Orlando this past week only indicates to me that we’ve all got more internal clearing to do. That it’s not because of one person, but that it’s because of a collective, that it’s not because of one family, but that it’s because of a collective, that it’s not because of one religion, but that it’s because of a collective.

Remember, no one will be left behind, and until there is a shift for everyone, no ONE person is going anywhere.

The whole world is family ~ we are all part of a collective that is co creating this reality. We must all elevate in consciousness together.

Spending time with my dear family, who hold high standards and values and are committed to their internal growth, is the only fight I feel I’ve got against terrorism.

Remember people, “Be the change you wish to see in the world” Mahatma Gandhi

Stay true, stay committed, stay real

May peace prevail inside each one of us reflecting out to our beloved Mother Earth

Sending love, prayers and blessings to the families who lost their loved ones this week, including the man’s family who snapped and created the terror, for they need love and blessings too

With love and humility Catherine

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